My book, The Path to My Heart, tells a story about my aspects who left me during childhood and returned later in my life. They appeared suddenly in June, 2011 between two powerful eclipses. I had put out a strong intention to heal my past. I awoke one morning to find myself face to face with my inner child aspect, Sophie.
I became a mother. Just like that. It was time for my inner child to be born into my consciousness. Sophie was five years old and had been living within me, dormant, without a peep for 47 years.
During this time, I felt her completely, right alongside me in my consciousness, amazed at how real she felt. It’s as if I was living within a Shamanic Journey. I immediately realized she needed deep healing before being received into my heart. She was shut down and unresponsive. I wasn’t fully aware why she was shut down and it wasn’t until her story unfolded that it became clear, Sophie left at five years old due to childhood trauma. I also realized, not only did Sophie need to heal her heart, I needed to heal my own heart before I could integrate Sophie, and the other aspects, into my heart.
I left my body a few times as a child, flying down the stairs. I remember waking up one morning thinking Wow! That was fun, I want to do it again! At the time, I didn’t have a clue why this was happening. Now, I realize I dissociated from my body during trauma. This could have been the time Sophie left, fragmenting from me. At the moment she completely split apart, she became her own “self” and her growth ceased. She was stuck in time literally, and stuck with the traumatic feelings I was experiencing at the time. I had been unconscious for most of my life to the understanding that Sophie was existing within me…along with the others.
Inner Child Stuck in Time
Excerpts from Lisa Renee, Energetic Synthesis Ascension Glossary:
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve seen someone as a child that has gone through an abuse and their emotional and spiritual development is stunted, the aging process stops at that time of trauma, even as their biological body ages, their emotional and spiritual body just gets stopped or frozen in time. That person who suffered that trauma may actually have the emotional development of a 8 year old, a 12-year-old in that particular issue because they never healed their inner child from the abuse they suffered from that particular timeline.
I was beginning to understand that the prime defense mechanism prevalent throughout my life, the strategy I used most often, was to shut down and not feel. If I (unconsciously) felt fear, or more likely the trigger emotion that caused my inner child to split, immediately an automatic response to shut down was produced. The next thing I would hear from the people around me was: “What’s wrong with you?” By then, it was too late, I usually couldn’t and wouldn’t answer. At best, I would shrug my shoulders, really not having a clue. I was triggered and had left the building!
So say there is a traumatic psycho-spiritual event, where someone was a child victim of abuse, or at some point in their life the person underwent some experience of abuse. So if that abuse energy is not forgiven, cleared and moved through the body; that person probably splintered off and dissociated from that trauma timeline, and a cording or astral binding was now created that connects into that timeline of the event. So its important to understand how these timelines work, as when you call back these aspects of inner child or Self, you’re calling back fragments of your Self that have been soul splintered through those particular timelines, especially when deep wounds like this are left unresolved and unhealed.
Sophie was stuck in a trauma timeline. This would cause looping, repeating the same patterns over and over in my life, just to end up feeling the same as I did when I was five and split. It would keep me in an abusive situation – whether with someone else or with myself. I have been the main abuser in my life. I became an expert at beating myself up in order to feel the end of the pattern: defeated, hurt, and guilt, just to start all over again. I also tend to take things personally, further feeding the negative beliefs about myself.
On a positive note though, Sophie, along with my other aspects, brought with them the keys to healing many of my patterns for good! There is so much more to write on this subject, and obviously it is important to me. It is all about wholeness, getting our pieces back and healing those timelines!
If you feel ready to receive your pieces into a safe space, and it must be safe, you can put out a strong intention for your pieces to come home to you.
I will write more on this later, but for now, to sum it all up:
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Information from the Energetic Synthesis Ascension Glossary entry on Trauma written by Lisa Renee: Lisa’s mission is to support humanity through its evolution with education, awareness and by discussing the impacts of the energy shifts upon the planet, human beings and human consciousness. She is an Ascension Guide, Planet Gridworker, Starseed Advocate, Spiritual mentor, Writer, and Etheric surgeon. She writes a monthly column for the Ascension Timeline called Shifting Timelines.
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