Since my mind is no longer focused on this impossible task and holding my body for ransom, and as I continue to release my earthly burdens to God, I’ve become more and more aware of my inclination to hold stress in my body. It really is a nasty habit, one I didn’t realize I mastered until I tried to let go. I also didn’t realize how detrimental it’s been carrying the weight of heavy mind-burdens around like sacks of sand. I feel like I’m just learning how to relax, or rather, unlearning using my body to carry stress and dropping the sand bags all together.
Because I didn’t realize I was holding stress – it takes a conscious effort on my part to quiet the mind and allow my body to relax. I’m on the computer a lot, so my eye muscles are brutally tight and very stressed. My eyeglass prescription keeps increasing and I do believe this is because the shape of my eyeball has been effected by the tight muscles. Also my jaw is very tight and aches. These are the two main areas of stress in my body – I wonder why it’s hard to rest or sleep some nights?
Who am I without these burdens to occupy my mind and damage my body? Who would I be if I relaxed into the ease and flow of life? Why am I like this? Why does my mind need to be occupied trying to solve an impossible equation?
Those are great questions. I feel I will get to the answers in time, or maybe it doesn’t matter. Actually, I don’t really want to send my mind on another wild goose chase trying to solve something that it can’t. I’d better release all these questions to my higher self to deal with! As I’ve stated in many of my posts, there are no life sentences of suffering from our own hand. We can all transform suffering into creativity and living a life we love. It takes intention and willingness to let go of old patterns.
Just the simple gesture of consciously lifting my eyes off the computer screen to have a look out the window gives my body the signal that I’m willing to learn how to relax. In time, this will become a habit and I can count on my body to let me know if and when I need to take a break. I’ll be living more consciously in this area of my life and it feels good to finally be addressing this habit.
It really is nice to be shown! Turning it all over to God really works! As Florence Scovel Shinn says:
I cast the burden on the Christ within and I go free!
As I let go of worry, fear, burdens, suffering, the past and the unknown, my path is being made clear! It’s unmistakeable and very welcomed! I can’t know what’s best for others and I certainly don’t know God’s plans for me – so I learn to relax in the mean time and let it all flow! Let go and let God! Think I’ll go for a walk, look for some cute baby birds and smell some flowers!! Lovely!
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