Here is an example of disassociation and feeling triggered. It can happen when we fragment and are unaware of our parts, or unaware of who we are. It’s a sense of being in the world but not of it – but not in a good way, it’s in a convenient, sort of denial, kind of way. Almost like just realizing that much of our life was lived without us. This keeps us separate. So, in everyday life, this translates as being in our family but not of family, being a friend but not of friendship, being a partner but not of partnership.
Lately, I am working on accepting my body – being in a physical body. So sometimes it feels like being in a body but not of body. Being present in my body isn’t always easy, especially when triggered. If I can maintain neutrality and practice forgiveness, I am on the path to healing.
A poem came out of me a few minutes ago that I wanted to share with everyone! I believe it if from one of my fragmented pieces who is waiting to join me.
by Donna Guillemette
I’m trying so hard to not be human
yet I am so moved by the human spirit
I am an outsider wanting to belong
why not just jump in the race
what is the delay
am I too good, or not good enough
will humanity accept my membership
what will it cost me
have I prepared enough
what will they say
the collective human is so powerful
i am a mere . . .
what am I really . . .
I’ll have to think about it some more
my heart will wait
I can feel it reaching though, for my next inspiration
something to get me to join in
maybe shed a tear, maybe, or just laugh
for me to shed this air of inhumanity
to become what it is for me to become
if only I were to know a heart full of passion
I surely would live from the inside out
I surely would live human beingness
Hey! you . . . over there, can you tell me again
what will it cost me to join?
I’m ready now
Oh hello, it’s free, come as you are,
we’ve been waiting for you!
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