Rekindling Creativity: Healing Stuck Feelings That Block Inspiration

I’ve heard people say they’ve receive creative inspiration from various kinds of places. I can’t really speak to this because I have limited personal experience with creativity. I’ve always believed and said, for better of worse, “I’m not a creative person.” I couldn’t conceive of what being creative means so it wasn’t missing for me, except, though, when I came across a creation that really spoke to me. I would be in complete admiration and appreciation for the creator’s talent!

That’s when I wished I too were creative. I’ve also been aware for many years that inspiration hasn’t exactly been a frequent visitor either nor have I felt fired up enough to take a stand and fight for a cause. It just hasn’t been there. I’ve asked many times: Where is my passion!! In the zodiac, I’m a triple fire for goodness sake – where’s my fire!! (Leo, Leo, Aries).

Typical me response, coming from couldn’t be bothered when asked:

  • What do you want to do today? I don’t know.
  • What do you want for dinner? I don’t care, I’ll have what you’re having.
  • Any movies you want to see? Don’t even know what’s playing.
  • Where do you want to go on holiday? Don’t know.

No power, no life. In my last post, Facing Our Fear of the Dark, I described how I stuffed down feelings of hatred and rage at age 14 and of how I recently faced my fear of being consumed by these feelings. I now know I am not dark and won’t cause harm to anyone. Not facing this fear kept me depressed and small. Fighting it became tiring.

Interestingly to note, I believe this was all built on self-hatred. It’s a tough one. I can see just how far my belief of self-hatred towards myself extended – even into other lifetimes. I’ve embarked on a journey of radical forgiveness to help (that’s for another post). I can’t even fathom where this hatred came from though, but it exists in me none-the-less, and needs to be witnessed and felt.

  1. Fear of feeling rage and hatred: faced and felt . . .
  2. allowing depression to lift . . .
  3. self-hatred surfaced, felt and witnessed . . .
  4. began a radical forgiveness journey . . .
  5. noticeable changes taking place!

First Change: I Took a Stand

I took a stand for myself! I am no longer afraid to speak up. Which is great on the one hand, but causing me some difficulty securing a part-time job on the other. I applied for a job (16 hours a week) working at a garden center restaurant, which I have recent job experience. The interview went well they invited me back to work 3 hours unpaid as a trial. I thought great, no problem. I sailed through my “we are not usually this busy” 3 hour trial and sat down with the manager. She explained the contract was for 16 hours, FLEXIBLE, meaning – you’ll never work 16 hours, more like over 20. Is that going to be a problem? Hmmm, I thought it was for 16 hours??

Before – like not too long ago, I would have said:

“Sure, no problem, whatever you need.”

Now, I said:

“I only wanted to work 16 hours a week, that’s what I thought I was applying for and that’s what works for me. Working a tough physical job more than 16 hours at minimum wage just isn’t worth it.”

Needless to say, I didn’t get the job, even though my work was “brilliant.” I can’t and won’t give myself away anymore. No more compromise, no more suffering. I took a stand for myself! I have so much faith and trust in the Divine that the exact right job will come!! I’m saying affirmations from Florence Shovel Shinn:

I have a wonderful job in a wonderful way, I give wonderful service for wonderful pay!

Second Change: Feeling Creative

I have found sparkles of creativity raining down on me! It feels really good and is very exciting! I love tweaking my web-site and designing things! I use Canva as a design platform – it’s free. I take images mainly from my posts and add sayings and quotes to them. Quite simple really, but it’s a start. I’ve been on Pinterest “pinning” my stuff and having a lot of fun! I think it’s great progress that I care enough to want to enhance my small business and increase my blog traffic through creativity!

I am standing for me being a creative, successful person.

It feels good being creative and expressive. It’s a lot of fun and life-enhancing. I am finding my passion and that’s all that has really mattered to me. All it took was facing my dark side and finding a scared, small, being, afraid to say boo. Sending so much love and compassion to my teenager-self who is now growing up safely within my heart.

The images in this post are the one’s I’ve designed by adding sayings to! Hope you enjoy!

I have lots of information on healing fragmented pieces in past blog posts. I have also written about it in story form in my book. Please let me know if there is more info needed on this subject as I feel more and more people will be welcoming their pieces home! it is better to have the awareness, it really helps!

5 thoughts on “Rekindling Creativity: Healing Stuck Feelings That Block Inspiration

  1. Donna, I’ll be back to really read your post that deserves time and I will comment. I am just about ready to settle down for the night with a good book so I’m closing up. I promise I’ll be back. Much Love to you! 💖💖💖

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  2. Wow, Donna!! Major growth going with you! Darn it! I am so proud of you! Everyone is creative and once we stop telling ourselves we are not, that is when we begin to open up to those tingles, those exciting urges that say …. OH let me see what I can do with this! You are allowing your Inner Child freedom, my friend! The more you open to All That Is to let Inspiration in, the more you will fly and I mean fly! Our way back to JOY is by being child-like and innocent. When I am behind my camera or when I’m editing an image, all else fades away as I enter a magical land. My writing too. The words just come, tumbling over one another in order for me to catch them and write them down. I am just SO excited for you! GO, DONNA! I LOVE what you created here …. keep playing! This is wonderful I am witnessing your transformation 🦋! Keep going, don’t stop, and know just know you were born to create, have fun, and give time to you to be a child again! BIG (((HUGS))) Amy 💞💞💞

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  3. Hi Amy! It’s so nice to hear coming from you! I see you as a very creative person – I love your photos and writing – they come from your heart and connection with Mother Earth. You have inspired me too! It is nice to have an excited feeling when creating, it does show growth with my inner child letting go from being so bottled up. It means a lot for you to be a witness to my growth, it’s a precious thing and I am so grateful! We are the modern day of pen pals!!! Thanks again Amy for all your support and for leading by example and being a way-shower. 🌸💜😃
    Just had to add – I also updated my web-site and gave it a new look. The Theme I had was retired so I decided to get a different one! More creating and more fun! Much love to you and lots of hugs!!

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  4. Yes I see you have been playing, Donna, and this is so cool!! Keep playing! Have fun! Let the constraint go and just fly! Fun is so good to release stress.

    Have a great day today, pen pal! Look at life with your new eyes to see the magic that is all around you!! Much Love to you! 💖💖💖

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